As expected, another cold treatment from her. Seriously I'm kinda used to it already, hahaha. Who am i kidding right... Ever since when I'm back in Singapore I've been thinking back about this relationship. But whats the use? when I'm alone crying emo-ing what is she doing. happily drinking with friends enjoying her oversea holidays? i don't know. she might be the same as me just that she is stronger then me on the outside that's why she don't show it to other people... Again this i seriously don't know. I think loving a person and having the person is two different thing. loving the person is u wanna shower her with love care concern etc etc... having a person is like someone who you can rely on, when u bored can ask her go out, call her on the phone, catch a movie dinner and the list goes on and on and on.... So the question I've been trying to find out for myself is I love her or I not used to being alone. Guess this question is the kind that there's no answer booklet, formulas or anyone who can help u to solve.

What i plan to do for my future days are as planned: Monday out in town with my dear buddy
Tuesday 4th year celebration at home/jogging
Wednesday Sailing
Thursday Sailing / back home / jogging
Friday See anyone is free to play majong
Life is quite a routine nowadays, must try to get used to it !!! I must be strong. For now I guess things is not as good as what i think it is but ive not given up yet. I shall just be alone for now and when she's needs me im always there for her 24/7.